Another trip around the sun and it’s been quite the ride. So many lessons, triumphs, heartbreaks, and surreal moments. Getting older is a precious gift, a privilege not to be taken lightly. My birthday for the last two years has been very lowkey with no real plans. For someone who has always enjoyed her special… Continue reading Reflection 44
Category: Relationships
Back on the Sofa
Who would have thought that I’d be back on the sofa. This stiff yet welcoming sofa. This sofa that is not my own, but allows me to be me on my own terms. This sofa absorbs every emotion, fear, and contemplative thought. This sofa and I parted ways so long ago and I thought we’d… Continue reading Back on the Sofa
These are my confessions
I know I’ve been out of touch for a while, but it’s for good reason. It’s taken me a long time to finally say my name is Chantel and I suffer from depression and anxiety. Yes, I’ve alluded to it many times in my posts, but never truly acknowledged or accepted that this is my… Continue reading These are my confessions
Simply Blessed
As I continue this last year in my thirties, I can truly say I’m in such a peaceful place. Having lost a dear friend last year at the age of 41, my desire for life, specifically a life well lived, is of the utmost importance. I want to leave this world, having made a positive… Continue reading Simply Blessed
Can’t Do It Alone
It amazes me how family behavioral traits can continue for generations. The women on my mother ‘s side of the family are strong and independent women. I would imagine it has a lot to do with the fact that there were more girls than boys so my mother and her sisters had to do the… Continue reading Can’t Do It Alone
She Said Yes
I did it. I approached her and quickly said we should get together some time and she responded “We should”. I walked away with mixed emotions about her response. Was she being sincere or was she just being polite to me? See, this is what anxiety will do to you if you allow it to… Continue reading She Said Yes
What If I Say Yes
Anyone who knows me knows I love to read. I come from a family of readers. Seriously, I don’t know anyone in my family who doesn’t read. One of my favorite childhood memories is my mom and I visiting a local used book store on Saturday mornings. It was the coolest place because you could… Continue reading What If I Say Yes
Self-Preservation
“Caring for myself is not self-indulgence, it is self-preservation, and that is an act of political warfare.” Audre Lorde I was reading a journal post earlier and this quote grabbed my attention. As an avid reader, I’m ashamed to admit that I know very little about the author but her words speak volumes. There are… Continue reading Self-Preservation
Builder or Destroyer
I have one question for you. Are you a builder or a destroyer? Every day each one of us has the power to build somebody up or to destroy them. Our tongues and actions are so powerful. I would venture to say however that our tongues are more powerful than anything. I spent a large… Continue reading Builder or Destroyer
Cookout Ettiquette 2014
It's officially summer. At the suggestion of a friend, here are my rules for a successful cookout season. Just a side note for you non-Southerners, barbeque(cue) is something you eat not something you do. You grill or cookout, but you never barbeque(cue). 1. The cookout should start no later than 1 hour after the agreed… Continue reading Cookout Ettiquette 2014